october in the hood

If you ask how my October has been, I'll probably just send you this meme:

The baby got her first two teeth, multiple shots, and is on the verge of crawling. As all moms know, each of these means many nights of excellent sleep. On opposite day. We are reacquainting ourselves with sleep training after I got so little sleep the other night that my Fitbit registered it as a nap.

Throw in some 5 year old hijinks, murder mosquitos, my 10 year old Macbook circling the drain, car problems, and whatever else has happened that I've forgotten for sanity purposes, and I'm eating a Little Debbie's pumpkin spice roll with ZERO GUILT because I have earned it.

Gotta make that milk, ya know?

Yes I am wearing my maternity pants today at 6 months pp, but at least I have to start pulling them up now. So that's something!

With that said, it has been a BEAUTIFUL October. 2020 has owed us that, at least. We've had a lot of chilly, rainy days, but when it's been nice I've gone on walks to admire the ~foliage~. 

The photo below is our backyard. I have a love/hate relationship with my house, but my backyard in the fall covers a VAST multitude of sins.

Not sure if you've heard, but there's an election next month. I wish I knew when to vote or where to vote or who all the celebrities are voting for and what they think I should do. No one will tell me! I used to love politics. I could discuss it all day long. Now I inwardly groan whenever anyone brings it up. I'm EXHAUSTED. Social media is a hellscape of opinions and hot takes and think-pieces and fear-mongering and THIS IS THE MOST IMPORTANT ELECTION IN OUR LIFETIME!!!!! 

You guys say that every 4 years. It's also the worst flu season ever and we've already died due to climate change. "It's the most dramatic season of all time!" -Chris Harrison/the entire world

You don't need to tell me who you're voting for. I don't need to tell you. Who we vote for shouldn't determine if we're friends or not or if we're the scourge of the earth. I am so disgusted by everyone on the internet that I deactivated all my accounts for 24ish hours until I was curious how many people had commented at the Super Adorable photo of my girls in matching jammies that my mom posted. #priorities

I have incredibly strong political views. My family and close friends get an earful. But a meme on Facebook never changed anyone's mind and it never will. It just encourages affirmative responses from the echo chamber you posted it for and caps lock word vomit from anyone who disagrees. Sure, there's a lot at stake, but I am too absorbed in my personal life to let myself get irate over politics. I cannot go down that road and I will not let anyone pull me down it. Part of me knows and believes that voting is a privilege and important and an honor and all that, and part of me wants to scream that if people won't quit yelling at me to register to vote (I've been registered since I was 18 CHILL) and to VOTEVOTEVOTE then I'm just going to cross my arms and refuse like a defiant child. STOP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO. And it won't end with the election, because the other side is going to throw a temper tantrum and there's no one who can tell them "You get what you get and you don't throw a fit" and then stick them in time out.

Stop reminding me to vote, PLEASE. If you want to be helpful, remind me to take my trash out Sunday night or grab my mask before I leave the house. If you're going to be annoying, at least be helpful!

Don't even get me STARTED about how nothing will actually change when the calendar flips to 2021. Bad things will happen then too, so it will be the new 2020.

I also have a whole rant saved up about people who brag about their kids' sleep or their idyllic postpartum experiences and their hUuUuUge support systems. I will save that for a later date.

Now that I've gotten that out of my system...some good things!

We're finally at the age where the girls can sit on the floor and play together. It is MAGNIFICENT. It's also the best time of year to start a baby on solids. First foods are very festive. Here's some butternut squash! Pumpkin! Apples! WELCOME TO FALL, LITTLE BABY, DOESN'T IT TASTE DELISH?

I am not a black nail polish person, but I threw some dark navy blue into my Target cart at the last second while I was ordering a few other things. I love it. It's moody like the weather without being...black. I love black clothing but I don't want my nails to look like frostbitten flesh. We'll save that for January.

I don't watch much on Youtube (who has the time?! what mom can stand to listen to one more voice talking at you once your kids are in bed?), but Jaime French is my favorite Youtuber by far. She's mostly in the beauty genre and I don't give a flip about makeup, but she reviews weird movies as well, and it is SO FUNNY. This one is my favorite. I also highly recommend hunting down her Lizzie McGuire movie review.

My neighbor has been bringing us the best food lately: tomato sausage soup, potato soup, pumpkin bars, cupcakes, etc. She and Gracie cook and bake a lot together, and I get to reap the benefits.

Our library had been closing every time Covid cases hit a certain level in our county. You never knew from day to day if they would be open or not. They finally came out and basically said screw this, we are too important to the community to keep closing. We're open no matter what. I wept tears of joy. This is what we need more of.

I've been very into Kings Kaleidoscope lately, this song in particular. So good. In the morning when we're doing school, I usually play Bach's Cello Suites. It sounds like it should be the soundtrack to October. Listen to it and tell me it doesn't sound like leaves swirling to the ground. Twinkle lights, fall candles, music, and views of the backyard make school mornings the coziest.

We've been tromping through the forest behind our house lately. It's just so gorgeous I want to cry. Like a snow globe but with leaves instead of snow. A leaf globe? My neighbor spotted us and invited us in for tea and cupcakes.


This is how life should be--neighbors and nature--not screaming at each other on the internet. I find a lot of solace in nature and the seasons--I always have, but lately it has been my free therapy. Not to be That Girl, but Anne Shirley really did have a point.

I wonder who she would vote for.

Don't go there.


  1. Your backyard is amazing!!!!! I truly love living in Oklahoma, but oh how I miss fall time in that part of the country. It's great that you get to enjoy such wonderful fall colors over there :) And I'm so happy for you guys that your library is staying open! A few months ago, our libraries finally opened to a "grab & go" stage, and we visit often. It's so nice to browse the bookshelves and chat with our librarians again.

  2. “You get what you get and you don’t throw a fit” has me cracking up. Isn’t it true, though? I listened to Allie Stuckey’s podcast last night and she was talking about people remaining friends and neighbors after all this is over, and it really resonated. And then I watched a short clip of Don Lemon comparing his Republican friends to drug addicts and how he’s had to just cut them out of his life because they’re “too far gone” and he’ll probably never be friends with them again, and the contrast between that and people who say “I strongly disagree with you, but I still respect you as a child of God” is just striking. I think everyone could stand to be a little more kind. Unless someone is burning down a local business, in which case we will never be friends.

    JAIME FRENCH. Maahhhhhhkup and mahhhhhvies are my favorite.

    Dark - not black - nail polishes are the BEST. Try a deep deep burgundy next. You wont regret it.

  3. I think you'll love the dark blue nail polish. I didn't want to go all the way to black either so I got dark blue and it's been perfection. You can break it out before January if the country goes south after the election.

    I love your yard! Can I come hike through the woods with you?

  4. Oh my gosh: the braggarts when it comes to their kids. I CANNOT. The sleep. The "they potty trained themselves!!!". The "of course she holds my hand in public". (The sleep is probably the big one.)
    Also, the support system thing. If I could do this mostly on my own, and I've survived, I cannot imagine how easy life would be with a support system (i.e. my mom babysits my niece 5 days a week for free, but we won't open up that wound).
    I have a dark green/gray on my nails right now. I prefer that compared to the burgundy you see everywhere this time of year.

  5. Definitely can't stand people who make sweeping declarations (whether it be about sleep or politics). Unfortunately I think you were right about the temper tantrum! I wish we could be civil and moderate in our discourse and politics.
    My kids are at the age that they love jumping in the leaves, and it's the cutest thing!


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